So I am feeling like garbage this morning. Been up since 330am, yuck! Had nausea since then. Yup, morning sickness nausea to be exact! 7 weeks on Tuesday, whoa! As my title says I've had a bit of a hard time admitting it! We wanted to have another baby, but I was thinking of getting pregnant in June. This baby had another plan!
Having two boys already, I would naturally love to see a little girl of my bloodline! I haven't yet decided if I want to know the sex of the baby before it chooses to tell us! My husband would like to know, but is willing to wait for me! He was so elated. I think he feels this is his time to redeem himself! I'm totally nervous. I am trying to enjoy each stage of this pregnancy, since it will most likely be my last! It would be crazy to think that I could be 29 and done having children when I know many people my age and older not even ready to start a family yet. My husband and I always reveled in the fact that we will still be young when our kids are out of the house. At this rate I'll be 46 when my youngest is 18! I have so much I want to do in my life. Travel being top of the list.
Work has been better since my previous posts. Our water heater ended up being covered under warranty, and so it was replaced. Although we haven't been as busy it seems to have fixed the problem. I still feel as though something fishy was going on, but don't really care enough to do anything about it!
There has been a lot of death around here lately, and I am constantly reminded at my good fortune. Each and every one of my family members are not only living, but healthy and prospering. It is truly amazing. I have the most understanding, tolerant, down to earth, supportive families out there, and everyday I am thankful for them!
Lately I have been feeling like my life is not offering me enough, therefore I am not offering my kids enough. I hope to expand on that during my next post.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Trying to be positive
So I am sitting here saying to myself what I want to write, and thinking about how I am such a pessimistic bitch. In the big picture my life is pretty dang good. Both my husband and I have jobs, our kids and families are healthy, we own a home, we own two cars, we don't live in the Sudan or some other wretchedly depressed place. But still, I am pissed. I am so annoyed ALMOST all the time, I can hardly stand it.
I just got a book in the mail today from one of my sisters which I hope will help. It is called A New Earth, Awakening to Your Life's Purpose. I should have asked for a book on tape, as any time I have I am on facebook, doing payroll (or something work related) or as of recent, BLOGGING! Anyway, I will keep ya posted on the book.
Yesterday. So I specialize in wedding hair and make-up, and pretty much love it. This past summer I had 14 weddings, most of which were VIP and hugely exhausting. I was so looking forward to a vacation after all my weddings. It never happened. Not a real one anyway with toes in the sand and margaritas! So back to yesterday, I had a bride ALREADY, for fricking SEPT 24, 2011....OMFG. I was so not ready. My kit was a mess, my hair was a mess, totally not prepared. I am still getting over this last wedding season! Ha ha...not funny! Anyway, as you can tell I was over yesterday before it even started. The appointment went flawlessly (of course!) but my day continued downhill. I received three calls, yup, 3 ~ from a wedding planner trying to accommodate her bride's appt for Thursday (tomorrow). The bride wanted to go skiing so was wondering if I could come in on my day off to accommodate her. NO! She is still coming tomorrow. After all the bridal hub-lub, guess what happened again for the 452nd time this month. Our water went out. Yep that's right, 5 stylists, 5 clients, and fucking freezing cold water, everyone was looking at ME. Like i'm a plumber. OMG. Deep breath. I called the property manger for the 208th time this week and told him the water went out, AGAIN! An hour later they showed up, and as my husband was in the back snooping around, they realized the people working next door (a story for another day) had turned off a breaker which was "somehow?" connected to my hot water heater. And consequently shorted the whole thing out, AGAIN! I'm talking endless problems people. Unbelievable. I said, "fix it, and your not leaving till it's fixed!" He says, "ok, we're changing everything out, it should be fine." Psssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhh!!!!! It worked for literally six minutes, I timed it! I called him again, even more pissed and after a glass of Chardonnay that one of my lovely clients must have known I needed. Long story kind of shortened, they were there at 6am this morning. It better work tomorrow. I repeat, it better work tomorrow!
I just got a book in the mail today from one of my sisters which I hope will help. It is called A New Earth, Awakening to Your Life's Purpose. I should have asked for a book on tape, as any time I have I am on facebook, doing payroll (or something work related) or as of recent, BLOGGING! Anyway, I will keep ya posted on the book.
Yesterday. So I specialize in wedding hair and make-up, and pretty much love it. This past summer I had 14 weddings, most of which were VIP and hugely exhausting. I was so looking forward to a vacation after all my weddings. It never happened. Not a real one anyway with toes in the sand and margaritas! So back to yesterday, I had a bride ALREADY, for fricking SEPT 24, 2011....OMFG. I was so not ready. My kit was a mess, my hair was a mess, totally not prepared. I am still getting over this last wedding season! Ha ha...not funny! Anyway, as you can tell I was over yesterday before it even started. The appointment went flawlessly (of course!) but my day continued downhill. I received three calls, yup, 3 ~ from a wedding planner trying to accommodate her bride's appt for Thursday (tomorrow). The bride wanted to go skiing so was wondering if I could come in on my day off to accommodate her. NO! She is still coming tomorrow. After all the bridal hub-lub, guess what happened again for the 452nd time this month. Our water went out. Yep that's right, 5 stylists, 5 clients, and fucking freezing cold water, everyone was looking at ME. Like i'm a plumber. OMG. Deep breath. I called the property manger for the 208th time this week and told him the water went out, AGAIN! An hour later they showed up, and as my husband was in the back snooping around, they realized the people working next door (a story for another day) had turned off a breaker which was "somehow?" connected to my hot water heater. And consequently shorted the whole thing out, AGAIN! I'm talking endless problems people. Unbelievable. I said, "fix it, and your not leaving till it's fixed!" He says, "ok, we're changing everything out, it should be fine." Psssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhh!!!!! It worked for literally six minutes, I timed it! I called him again, even more pissed and after a glass of Chardonnay that one of my lovely clients must have known I needed. Long story kind of shortened, they were there at 6am this morning. It better work tomorrow. I repeat, it better work tomorrow!
Monday, December 27, 2010
I found it! Haha!
I am not a writer by any means, and will probably find myself using a Thesaurus and Dictionary many time throughout this new chapter in my life. I have been searching for my calling, something besides the normal draws of my daily life to keep me excited and feeling like my own person. I hope to learn a lot. A lot about being a mom, a wife, a person, a friend, and a business woman. Please if I talk about you in a negative way, take it as a compliment that I am even mentioning you! Ha ha....I'll try to be nice! I don't even know how this whole blog thing works, and who will be able to see this, or how people will find it. But the mystery of it all is pretty exciting. Where to begin.......
I grew up in Alaska where I had an amazing childhood of exploring, hiking, fishing, cooking/baking, schooling, skiing/snowboarding, and using my imagination. I have two lovely sisters and two even more lovely, divorced parents. After a year and a half of college I moved to Maui to escape reality and delve (sp?) into my sabbatical at Cosmetology school. I ended up loving the business of making my own schedule, making people more beautiful, having a great income, and talking shit! I spent six years in Maui over all. In that time I got married to the man of my dreams, and gave birth to the most beautiful blue eyed boy. When he was two, we decided we wanted to lay down some roots and HI was not the place to do it. Vermont? Seattle? Alaska? Oh the options....because of a job opportunity we chose Vermont, or in a way, Vermont chose us. I now live in Northern Vermont where I own a nice 1920 little starter home that I wish was huge and perfect! I am the mother of two crazy boys, ages 2 and 5. (A girl one day you ask? Maybe!) I own a business that could be a whole blog on its own...wow! I have been married for five and a half years and they have been wonderful and terrible. (Part of the reason for the blog.) My husband works at a local resort as a doorman as that is what works with our ideal of no childcare, and owning a business. He enjoys it, and is way overqualified for his work, but at the end of the day, it works!
Right now, my kids are kneeling on the kids table screaming and banging at the dog that is basically doing the same thing from the opposite side of the window. She (the dog) has single handedly this holiday season, chewed through two sets of Christmas lights, a set of red beads for the tree, two extension cords, four shoes, many toys, barfed on the couch, peed and pooped in the playroom and put a hole in the screen which she is jumping on right NOW! My sister says we should just get rid of them, I am sure she is right, yet it isn't going to happen. We were smart enough to "get a friend" for our other dog two months ago. Yeah, real smart.
On another note. I have just punched down two loaves of bread by hand, which I said I wasn't going to make in the first place because my Kitchen-Aid decided to break two days before Christmas. Lovely. I did however, make the bread. I also made "Everything but the kitchen sink" soup for dinner. I am sure my kids will say they "Hate it!" And won't eat a bite. Classic. Earlier today I was saying how I feel terrible throwing out all the food I make my kids everyday that they don't ever eat. I still haven't figured out how to deal with that. I find myself giving other people (mostly at work) really good advice on how to get their kids to eat, because I have tried everything and it never works for me. Well, almost everything. I think it was my mom, or maybe one of my sisters that just said, "stop feeding them." Ha ha, sounds terrible, but I know they won't starve. Maybe I'll start that tonight!
I grew up in Alaska where I had an amazing childhood of exploring, hiking, fishing, cooking/baking, schooling, skiing/snowboarding, and using my imagination. I have two lovely sisters and two even more lovely, divorced parents. After a year and a half of college I moved to Maui to escape reality and delve (sp?) into my sabbatical at Cosmetology school. I ended up loving the business of making my own schedule, making people more beautiful, having a great income, and talking shit! I spent six years in Maui over all. In that time I got married to the man of my dreams, and gave birth to the most beautiful blue eyed boy. When he was two, we decided we wanted to lay down some roots and HI was not the place to do it. Vermont? Seattle? Alaska? Oh the options....because of a job opportunity we chose Vermont, or in a way, Vermont chose us. I now live in Northern Vermont where I own a nice 1920 little starter home that I wish was huge and perfect! I am the mother of two crazy boys, ages 2 and 5. (A girl one day you ask? Maybe!) I own a business that could be a whole blog on its own...wow! I have been married for five and a half years and they have been wonderful and terrible. (Part of the reason for the blog.) My husband works at a local resort as a doorman as that is what works with our ideal of no childcare, and owning a business. He enjoys it, and is way overqualified for his work, but at the end of the day, it works!
Right now, my kids are kneeling on the kids table screaming and banging at the dog that is basically doing the same thing from the opposite side of the window. She (the dog) has single handedly this holiday season, chewed through two sets of Christmas lights, a set of red beads for the tree, two extension cords, four shoes, many toys, barfed on the couch, peed and pooped in the playroom and put a hole in the screen which she is jumping on right NOW! My sister says we should just get rid of them, I am sure she is right, yet it isn't going to happen. We were smart enough to "get a friend" for our other dog two months ago. Yeah, real smart.
On another note. I have just punched down two loaves of bread by hand, which I said I wasn't going to make in the first place because my Kitchen-Aid decided to break two days before Christmas. Lovely. I did however, make the bread. I also made "Everything but the kitchen sink" soup for dinner. I am sure my kids will say they "Hate it!" And won't eat a bite. Classic. Earlier today I was saying how I feel terrible throwing out all the food I make my kids everyday that they don't ever eat. I still haven't figured out how to deal with that. I find myself giving other people (mostly at work) really good advice on how to get their kids to eat, because I have tried everything and it never works for me. Well, almost everything. I think it was my mom, or maybe one of my sisters that just said, "stop feeding them." Ha ha, sounds terrible, but I know they won't starve. Maybe I'll start that tonight!
Right now.
I am going to start out by saying that I am glad my last post got erased, it was a stroke of genius. I was writing about all the wrong stuff...I also want to say that I wished to invite only people I know (so I could then block all of them) and then for only people I don't know, and then my sisters and parents to be able to read this. But it won't let me. Damn. So if you know me, and you somehow stumble across this blog, and I say something that offends you, i'm sorry.....but not really....read someone else's blog!
Here goes....
Ok so I wanted to start out with a little bit about me, but realize i'd rather bitch about all the stuff I need to do, and am not, because I am writing here instead! I have three loads of laundry to fold/hang up, a load of diapers in the dryer that need to de sorted/folded, stairs that are 2/3 puttied and then need to be sanded, primed and painted, I have 6 weeks worth of credit card transactions that need to be entered into Quickbooks. I have a counter full of dishes and dinner to wash and put away, the floors (although swept his morning) are trashed, the bathrooms are of course rediculous and disgusting because I live with not only three boys, but for the last six weeks, four, and for some reason that huge hole filled with water is too small for them to get their pee into. My porch door all of a sudden decided to not close all the way, and there's a snow storm outside. The dogs need to be fed although they don't deserve it! But I do have both the boys fed(kind of) and in bed with their teethed brushed and jams on...one is already asleep, the other well, not asleep! Oooh, and last, but certainly not least, I need to prepare myself and mentally encourage myself to have sex with my husband tonight....
Okay, so maybe that was delving(is that a word?) into my drama a little quick. But blogs are supposed to be about honesty. So....there you go!
Here goes....
Ok so I wanted to start out with a little bit about me, but realize i'd rather bitch about all the stuff I need to do, and am not, because I am writing here instead! I have three loads of laundry to fold/hang up, a load of diapers in the dryer that need to de sorted/folded, stairs that are 2/3 puttied and then need to be sanded, primed and painted, I have 6 weeks worth of credit card transactions that need to be entered into Quickbooks. I have a counter full of dishes and dinner to wash and put away, the floors (although swept his morning) are trashed, the bathrooms are of course rediculous and disgusting because I live with not only three boys, but for the last six weeks, four, and for some reason that huge hole filled with water is too small for them to get their pee into. My porch door all of a sudden decided to not close all the way, and there's a snow storm outside. The dogs need to be fed although they don't deserve it! But I do have both the boys fed(kind of) and in bed with their teethed brushed and jams on...one is already asleep, the other well, not asleep! Oooh, and last, but certainly not least, I need to prepare myself and mentally encourage myself to have sex with my husband tonight....
Okay, so maybe that was delving(is that a word?) into my drama a little quick. But blogs are supposed to be about honesty. So....there you go!
Omigod, I just spent an hour writing my first post, and now its gone...FUCK!
Okay so the story of my life. I literally just wrote a really good first blog post, and then when spell checking somehow erased it ALL. I swear, my patience is seriously being tested. Unfortunately I need to pay attention to my children and dinner and will try to re-write the awesome first post later tonight. But, it will of course not be as meaningful and life-changing as the first on was....damn!
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